The answer to the question for me is yes. Not all the time, but sometimes yes. And I have a feeling there are a lot of moms out there that feel the exact same way. In fact I KNOW there are others out there! The last week or so I have had several people come to me saying they are struggling with this exact problem.
You guys know I am a homeschooling mom, my son is 6 and is starting 1st grade this year and it has proven to be a little challenging. He is doing a great job but I am the one feeling like I struggling to keep my head above water. I am doing school with both kids, working my business, trying to do the household chores (who am I kidding I am failing miserably in this area right now), and still trying to be the wife and mom my family needs. I am exhausted mentally and physically. It is a little overwhelming, and I am trying my hardest to not unload that on my family.
Then, last night I had ladies bible study. It is always such a blessing to me. I get a 30 minute drive to and from church all to myself…to sing at the top of my lungs and just decompress. I get fellowship with my sisters in Christ. And above all some amazing lessons that come from our study. (And sometimes from the fellowship with friends). Last night was no different. We had a great introductory study in Ephesians and then, as we were getting ready to leave, a friend of mine confided in me that she is struggling with this “failure” feeling. She told me she feels like she is juggling a million things everyday, and seems to be dropping more than she is actually juggling. Isn’t that how we all feel sometimes?! There are so many responsibilities that we carry on our shoulders as moms and we are only one person. But why do we do that? Strike that…why do I do that? I know that the Lord has a plan for me. I know He has plans for my children, for my husband, and for my business…why do I forget to give these things to Him?
He tells us “Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.” Matthew 11:28-30
Instead of letting the stresses we face every day get us down, or stress us out, we need to remember to turn to Him. He loves us and wants us to have His peace. He doesn’t want us to feel like failures! He sees us as a completed work, beautiful, and perfected! Isn’t that enough!?
My friends, this post is really for me. I needed to vent a little and work through things in my own mind. Like I said, I know I am not the only one struggling with these thoughts, so I am praying for all of us today. Let’s not let the enemy win…let’s turn to the Lord and let him get the glory in us overcoming these feelings of self doubt!